Sunday, April 10, 2005
im just puttin this here cause myspace is down and i dont feel like losing this
Friday, March 4, 2005
alright its been a bit since iv updated, and the only reason im updating right now is cause im pretty pissed about something, but first im gonna talk about all the good stuff thats happend to me.
first brittney asked me out, that has really made my life alot better. she makes me so happy.
second is that i went to turnabout with brittney and i had a blast, i suck at dancing but at least i tried
third im getting mostly good grades
the fourth is kinda iffy right now because i dont know if its gonna happen. i might quit working at jewel, but my dad wants to talk to them about cutting the hours i work down. basically the reason im pissed is because they had me working all this weekend, friday 6 to 10, saturday 6 to 10 and sunday 4 to 10. iv worked alot of these kind of weekends so normally that wouldnt have pissed me off. the thing that pissed me off the most is that they have me down for working next week on thursday 6 to 10, friday 6 to 10, saturday 4 to 10, and sunday 2 to 10. first of all i have told them several times that i cannot work thursdays because of my ACT class, infact i even gave them the days that i go to the classes, so they know when they end. second is the fact that i would have worked 22 hours in 4 days, when i was hired i told them that i wanted 12 to 14 hours and no more. they ignored me.
and finally the reason that pisses me off is the fact that they lied to me. i was told that once they post my scheadule, it cannot b changed because of some stupid union rule, which, aparently is complete bull shit. so basically when i quit, i am going to tell them to take their stupid job and shove it up their anal retentive asses. espically sally who is possible the biggest fucking bitch i have ever met in my entire life.
and guess what, if i dont get next thursday and next saturday off, i will quit. i would like to have a social life which they are making impossible.
well thats my bitching for the next few weeks. so until i post again, later bitches.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
i thought id update this cause i had an amazing day. first it started off with me going to the auto show, i had a great time, i got lots of pics on my camera phone. the mustangs were orgasmic. then on the way home from it melisa asked me out. then during the track meat i p.r.ed every event i was in. for 55 high hurdles i got 9.0, for 55 low hurdles i got 8.6, and for high jump i got 4'8". so all in all i had an awesome day
Thursday, February 3, 2005
i havnt updated recently except for that one poem thing, but i was sorta depressed and need to vent a little. so heres whats been going on in my life (like anyone cares)
all my classes this semister are easy, i got cool people in them and thats always good
i finally got my 3 step down for hurdles
i started doing high jump as well
i got new track shoes (yay)
i found out that someone i liked alot liked me first semister(b4 she had a bf) but being me, i was too shy and self concious to even think that she (or ne one else) would like me
i finally got over 100 on my paycheck, its probably a one time thing, but its better then nothing
i just took my first act prep class tonight, it seems pretty easy
there would probably b more if i thought hard and tried to remember it all
some more good news is that i didnt get below a c on my report card, although i got like 3 of em and my cumulative GPA is a little under 3, its kinda bad cause i probably wont b able to get into the college i want. but i might try to take some weighted classes next year to raise it
yea, thats basically it
Friday, January 28, 2005
heres my attempt at writing a poem, i know it sucks. but i gotta write something for my psych paper thats due, so i might as well write when i feel like it
Always hoping for what he knows will never happen
Always trying to be the best when he knows he won’t be
Never finding what he’s good at, still always searching
Running and Music are the only things that bring him joy
For they are the only things he has the slightest talent at
So many tell him to give up, that he is a loser, that he can’t do it
He tells them to fuck off and leave him alone
Because they are the only things that keep him going
Because with out them, he has nothing, he is nothing
He knows he’s not the best, but still he tries
Always looking for acceptance wherever he can find it
its not done, and im not sure if ill finish it any time soon so let me know what u think about it
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
im only updating cause im really proud of my bowling scores today
first game - 148
second game - 101
third game - 115
and happy birthday brittney! ur awesome
Sunday, January 2, 2005
tonight was hot, thats all im saying for now
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
10:58PM - christmas and junk
lets see, christmas was good. i got what i asked for and a little more. i got hl2 which was top on my list, i also got a mini disc player and a new stereo. so im happy about that, then i got a pillow my sister made and some choclate, i got a giftcard to gamestop, i bought a game with that. then i got a guitar stand from my parrents, an ornament, and then some money and a dvd.
and lets see, i just beat hl2, i thought it would feel good, but the ending was so anti climactic. but oh well, the rest of the game was awesome, so i cant wait for hl3, and im sure theres gonna b one. i guess now i gotta beat doom 3 and splinter cell: pandora tomorrow.
on friday im celebrating christmas with my moms side, so that will b good, but that ment i had to clean today and that wasnt fun, but at least i got my stereo mounted on the wall, and my guitars hanging there too. so ill update sometime later. it might b a while, since i dont think ne one reads this ne way. comment if u do
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
well lets see, heres what happend this week so far.
monday, i dont remember what exactly, but i know it was ok
tuesday, sucked major balls. i started thinking about random shit during lunch and it just ruined my day, then after school my mom bitched me out for grades in the car on the way home, so i got out and walked. i didnt go straight home either, so my hands got really cold and wouldnt stop hurting till today.
today, started off kinda ok but not really, i was better about my grades and shit cause i talked with my mom, but then my hands were still hurting and then my hip felt like someone was burning it. then it got better i got some food in german, thanks btw to who gave me the choclate. then in pre engineering, uslysese(sp) was making me laugh my ass off, and was grossing me out at the same time talking about his "mexican jumping bean". ill leave u to think about that...then after school i talked to some people, got kinda depressed but then i played guitar and some computer games and i was a little better. and now i just filled out some thing i took from someones journal who i dont know, so here it is
01. I have a cell phone X
02. I'm obsessed with new things.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am a chocoholic. X
05. I love my gauged ears. I don’t know what that means exactly, but X
06. I love wearing a lot of black eyeliner
07. I love Daquiris. Who?
08. I love the weekends. X
09. I can't live without lipgloss.
10. I can't live without music. X
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have. X I cant hold on to it
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags
15. I get annoyed easily. X
16. I eventually want kids. Maybe, im still not sure tho
17. I like the Backsreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories. X
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I am a person. X
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I start school on Jan 4th or 5th
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake. X
25. I can be mean when I want to. X
26. My dreams are bizarre. X
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I've seen "She's All That" at least 50 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I love Charmed.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late. X
34. I procrastinate. X
35. Winter is my least favorite season. Not my favorite, but its not that bad
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep. X
38. I wish I were smarter I wish I were smarter about certain things
39. I am the hottest girl im not a girl
40. I have a lot of drama
41. No one knows my full story of my life. X
42. I love my hair. 43. I sometimes fight with my parents. X all the time
44. I love the beach!
45. I have had the chicken pox. X
46. I'm excited for the future. Im kinda scared, but whatever happens happens
47. I can't control my emotions.
48. I can't wait till New Year's.
49. I love the show 'Rich Girls'
50. I love my friends. X
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday
52. I can be very insecure sometimes. X
53. I have had a broken bone. X
54. I hate ignorant people. X
55. I love my laptop.
56. I love guys that play the guitar. I like girls who play the guitar
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person. (Generally speaking)
59. I love to dance.
60. I love to sing.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous very easily. X
63. I like to play video games.X
64. I love John Mayer
65. I hate when I see animals getting hurt/abused. X
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef. I love bacon too much for that
67. I don't study for tests. X
68. I love to eat Play-Doh.
69. I am too forgiving. X
70. I have a good sense of direction. X
71. I like high school. Ehh, its got its good side and its bad side
72. I have a talent of sweet talking my way out of things. I bs my way out of things
73. I tend to get drunk
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue
76. I don't sew. X
77. I am addicted to drugs.
78. I love the Olsen twins. Im just gonna say that I was happy when I found out one of em had an eating disorder
79. I'm gonna try out for the softball team.
80. I become stressed easily. Id say angry more then stressed
81. I DISLIKE liars. X
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Bam Margera is awesomei don’t know who that is
84. I love the smell of fresh laundry.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots. X
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things. X
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums. X
89. I hate the feeling of failure. My whole life is a failure, so its something Iv gotten used to by now
91. I would love to have my own fashion line.
92. I can be quite selfish. X
93. I still act like a little kid. X all the time
94. Above all, I despise dishonesty.
95. I can stay on the computer forever X
96. I love music. X
97. I wish I was more motivated when it comes to school. If the classes werent tought by morons
98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have problems letting go of people. X
100. I hate the feeling of being alone. It depends on my mood, sometimes I just like being alone, and sometimes I wana b around my friends
101. I love slipknot! X hell yea!!!
Saturday, December 11, 2004
woo, i had an awesome week....even though today i "got my ass beaten" by brittney. all because jenni told her too. oh well, some good came of it. but back to the awesome week, i dont know y it was awesome, it just was. i learned how to shuffel poker chips which is the highlight of my week. i also got to turn in a paper 2 days late with out being penalized, cause a virus messed up my comp. ud think thats bad, but it was easy to fix once i knew what was wrong with it. but i dont got work tomorrow, i only work till 8 on sunday, and im happy with that. also theres only 1 week left!!! yay. damn im in such a good mood. well goodnight all. ill leave u with some judas priest lyrics
Up here in space
I'm looking down on you.
My lasers trace
Everything you do.
You think you've private lives
Think nothing of the kind.
There is no true escape
I'm watching all the time.
I'm made of metal
My circuits gleam.
I am perpetual
I keep the country clean.
I'm elected electric spy
I protected electric eye.
Always in focus
You can't feel my stare.
I zoom into you
You don't know I'm there.
I take a pride in probing all your secret moves
My tearless retina takes pictures that can prove.
Electric eye, in the sky
Feel my stare, always there
's nothing you can do about it.
Develop and expose
I feed upon your every thought
And so my power grows.
Protected. Detective. Electric eye.
Wednesday, December 1, 2004
yea bitch!!! i got my website up finally, im still workin out some bugs in it, and workin on the look a little, but heres the site http://xendorslayer.freewebpage.org, check it out and comment here(since the guest book isnt working on that site) and tell me what u think of my first try at html
ps-did u know that brittney is gonna die in a month? thats what she told me today.
Sunday, November 28, 2004
this years thanks giving was alot better then last years. this time i had something to b thankful for. but yea, we had turkey, 2 kinds of stuffing, deviled eggs and alot of other stuff. i loaded my plate up, went downstairs ate my food, finished off my hard lemonade, and drank a smirnof. then after everyone left, it was only like 7 or 8 or something like that, so i went over to johns house and we played n64 for a while and unlocked some things on perfect dark. then he drove me home and i talked to some people online and went to sleep.
then friday i woke up, played medal of honor for a few hours, got ready for work and then worked until 8, then i came home, tried to call my friends, but they were out, so i played games and watched tv. then after that i stayed up late talking to brittney, that ended on a bad note cause i was an ass and got all depressed, so im sorry for that brit.
then saturday, i hung out with john, kevin, sean, and carl at johns house. we played perfect dark, and the world is not enough on n64. then john carl and sean had to work on something for one of their classes so kevin and i installed freedom fighters on johns computer and played that for a while, then kevin and i tried to figure out the camera taser thing again, and guess what? i got zaped, with out charging it, then john told me he was messing with it in the last few weeks and charged it. then i got a ride home from kevin around 1130. then i stayed up all night again talkin to brit and it was awesome this time. i was in a really good mood saturday night/sunday morning. wooooo fun stuff. brit ur awesome!
then today was boring, i woke up and wanted to get some stuff to die my hair black, and my mom said if i did, she would take away my computer, and im a computer whore so i took that threat seriously. so istead i worked on the graphics for my website that im making to host all the sigs and movies for my mohaa clan i make. then after the meeting for my clan, we had a match against another clan. and we actuctally had enough people this time so we played and we won 8-2. Big Red One ROCKS!!! w00t better watch out, we got jonnyG back
Thursday, November 25, 2004
happy thanks giving everyone
all i gotta say is this year was alot better then last year
woooo, i got me some alcohol
mikes hard lemonade all the way!!
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
im getting really sick of this shit, i had my aim working b4, and now all of a sudden it doesnt work. i wana know what the fuck is going on
Monday, November 22, 2004
my aim isnt working again, i hate this fucking shit
Saturday, November 20, 2004
last few days since i updated have been ok, i was in weird moods for parts of em, but its all good.
i worked today from 3 to 7. sally wanted me to stay till 1030, but fuck that, i dont get over time so its not worth it. then b4 i left i bought a disposable camera, because i was told u could make a stun gun with one of those, after messing around with it for a while at johns, i got shocked mildly, then we started messing around and i got an electrical burn on my finger, so thers a blister, but now i know it works =). so carl better watch out. yea thats pretty much it. what an exciting life i live
my chest hurts, i dont know if its from being zaped, or from work. oh well ill find out some day
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
well, my aim isnt working, which is pissing me off cause theres some people i wanted to talk to b4 i went to bed, but i guess that isnt happening, other then that nothing much has happend besides the fact that my grandma is here for a while, so i lost my old room as a place to take a nap after school, and right now i really dont feel like going into more details, im just pissed cause i cant get on fuckin aim along with some other shit, so ill update sometime next week after i work friday, sat and sun which ruins ne chance of me doing nething with my friends =(
Sunday, November 7, 2004
i havnt updated in a few days, heres what happend since i last updated. i think the last time was halloween.
monday: i did nothing, i just sat around and played my guitar and computer games
tuesday: i dont really remember, but i think it was the same as monday
wednesday: i worked for a few hours then came home and slept
thursday: first day of bowling for gym, i beat my old top score and got 84. then after school i went and got my paycheck, bought some flowers and ibcrootbeer and went to brittneys and gave them to her cause it was the anniversary of when i asked her out last year and for some reason it means something to me. so i showed up at her house and we got bored so she ran around the house and i chased her while her dog tried to trip me, then we sat around and talked, then i left. then i went to bestbuy bought a gift for my sisters bday next week and finally bought wc3. that too out half my paycheck. then i came home played my game and went to sleep.
friday: nothing special, i ended up hanging out at seans with kevin carl and of course sean, we played risk and it ended when after we destroyed kevin in a 100+ troops battle. it took 30 mins for each battle so we were playing for around 3 hours
saturday: worked 930 to 5. after that i was tired and came home, then i went to kohles and bought a denem(sp) jacket and saw mark unsiano (not sure on the spelling of his last name) we talked for a few seconds about track, all i say is he better fuckin do it in college or everyone will b dissapointed in him
today: played comp games, then ill b workin 4 to 1030 then sleeping right when i get home so i can go and lift weights tomorrow at 6
i dont wana go to work today, but the good news for me is i only got 4 hours shifts on wednesday and friday this week
Sunday, October 31, 2004
blah, i just got home from wprk. 4 till midnight, it was so boring. but yet so much fun. the job is boring, but the people i work with r hilarious, and the people who come in late to buy alcohol r great too. but yea, i had a bittle of mountain dew, and 4 double shots(expresso) so im really fuckin hyper right now, but yea, i dont have to work again till wednesday which im happy about, and yea im gonna go play my ass some invisible war. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
and im gonna drink my ass some ibc rootbeer <========== orgasmic
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
i dont know y, but all of a sudden i feel terrible. i dont know if its cause im tired or what. but the song im listening to that used to not bother me is getting me really depressed. something felt off when i was talkin to someone today too. i dont know, maybe its cause i spent the entire day doing nothing. fuck, i hate when this happens. i just wana give up on everything, lay down and die
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